June 2012
Jumbled
That’s what it is. Jumbled-
That’s what I am. Jumbled-
A mix of too many feelings. too many experiences.
A jumbled cauldron of lethal thoughts.
I tried to make sense of it my whole life.
I tried to create conclusions and goals from them.
But it is now the golden years.
The golden notorious 20s.
But it feels far from that.
I tried to fix everything too soon.
And now, the year that everything should fall in place is jumbled.
I jumbled everything in the process.
I guess you need to feel the lows to reach your highs.
What would make you happier?
Change. Something different. Something new. Something that forces me forward and keeps me from dwelling, analyzing, and echoing my own thoughts.
